day diecenueve = someone who pesters my mind

good or bad? uhhh. lolkurtis. idunno if it's good or bad. maybe it's good and bad? i'll know after this coming week if it's good or bad =]

god i like him. i always have. like a shitton. but i don't know at all how he feels about me. first it was all whoahedoesn'tlikeme. then it was all whoahelikesmealot. then it was all whoawe'reflirtingtheintensewaybuthewantssingle. then it was whoahe'signoringme. sooooooo we'll see? montreat, something's gonna happen. something big. i know it. I CAN FEEL IT IN ME BONESSSS. what is that a quote from? NO WAIT IT WAS I CAN FEEL IT IN ME NOSE. BUT WHAT IS THAT FROM? hmmmm.

day dieceocho = someone i wish i could be

honestly, i enjoy being myself quite a bit. i'm figuring out more and more every day and it'd be a pity to throw tht all away and start over. but if i could be anyonee? probably someone like krysia.

she's and amazing dancer, she's so nice, she's so pretty, she's got a fantastic handle on her religion, she's always laughing, everyone loves her. =]

day dieceseis = someone not in my country/state

i could say kim again but she's still in the usa! whoootttttt.
so instead i pick my grandma. my oma =]
she's my oldest family member at 78. super impressive i know =p
i was quite unhappy with her being my grandma for a while there but hey, she's doing the best she can. she's pretty unhappy. like, she doesn't really like being alive but at the same time she's realllyyy afraid of dying but also she's scared her money will run out before she does. uhm yeah. i don't see her a lot but she's coming here in september! so yeeeaaaahhh. kthatsall.
also i realize my spanish number spelling is atrocious. don'tcare.

day quince = the person i miss the most

i couldddd say bryan and joey but i won't. cause i don't miss them the most. i couulllddd say who i'm using for day 20 but day 20 is enough for him. i couuulldddd say idunno.
but. i say this instead.

i'm gonna lose my best friend in a week. i'll go from being with her literally 23.5 hours a day to not talking to her. i'm almost crying thinking about it. i miss her already =/ =[[[[

day catorce = someone i've drifted from

ohlookit'skatie.
we used to be pretty tight. but she got all bitch snobby and i got all nerdy and a little stuckup and she stopped coming to church and idunno. it just kinda kasplatted. but she's nice now. maybe we can be friends again sometime.

day trese = someone i wish could forgive me

lolsobehind. uhm.
do iwish someone could forgive me?
notreally. man that sounds bitchy but really, i'm on good terms with everyone i want to b on good terms with. i guess i wish god could forgive me for being a kinda shit person sometimes? but i know he does ^_^ jesusiscoolshit.
nopicture. i'm tired and not in a philisophical enough mood to think of a god picture.

day doce = person who caused me a lot of pain

it was either caused a lot of pain or who i hate most. i don't really hate people. so caused me a lot of pain. i'll save the one i'm thinking of for the broke your heart the hardest though and instead go with this person even though it'll make me look stupid and awful.

this is kim. my cousin. i love her like a ton. i really do. she's just like me and it's so awesome that she's here and all butttttt. this is also the first time i've ever been like really jealous lol. people love her and ignore me now. like honestly, if she's there, they don't even talk to me. instead they're fawning over how gorgeous she is or how cute her accent is or how cool it is she's from the netherlands. i guess i'm scared that she's stealing all my friends? which is stupid cause she's going back to the netherlands soon and all but i feel like they'll still remember her, still ask about her, still love her more than me =[ oh well. tough noogies i guess.