day diecenueve = someone who pesters my mind

good or bad? uhhh. lolkurtis. idunno if it's good or bad. maybe it's good and bad? i'll know after this coming week if it's good or bad =]

god i like him. i always have. like a shitton. but i don't know at all how he feels about me. first it was all whoahedoesn'tlikeme. then it was all whoahelikesmealot. then it was all whoawe'reflirtingtheintensewaybuthewantssingle. then it was whoahe'signoringme. sooooooo we'll see? montreat, something's gonna happen. something big. i know it. I CAN FEEL IT IN ME BONESSSS. what is that a quote from? NO WAIT IT WAS I CAN FEEL IT IN ME NOSE. BUT WHAT IS THAT FROM? hmmmm.

day dieceocho = someone i wish i could be

honestly, i enjoy being myself quite a bit. i'm figuring out more and more every day and it'd be a pity to throw tht all away and start over. but if i could be anyonee? probably someone like krysia.

she's and amazing dancer, she's so nice, she's so pretty, she's got a fantastic handle on her religion, she's always laughing, everyone loves her. =]

day dieceseis = someone not in my country/state

i could say kim again but she's still in the usa! whoootttttt.
so instead i pick my grandma. my oma =]
she's my oldest family member at 78. super impressive i know =p
i was quite unhappy with her being my grandma for a while there but hey, she's doing the best she can. she's pretty unhappy. like, she doesn't really like being alive but at the same time she's realllyyy afraid of dying but also she's scared her money will run out before she does. uhm yeah. i don't see her a lot but she's coming here in september! so yeeeaaaahhh. kthatsall.
also i realize my spanish number spelling is atrocious. don'tcare.

day quince = the person i miss the most

i couldddd say bryan and joey but i won't. cause i don't miss them the most. i couulllddd say who i'm using for day 20 but day 20 is enough for him. i couuulldddd say idunno.
but. i say this instead.

i'm gonna lose my best friend in a week. i'll go from being with her literally 23.5 hours a day to not talking to her. i'm almost crying thinking about it. i miss her already =/ =[[[[

day catorce = someone i've drifted from

ohlookit'skatie.
we used to be pretty tight. but she got all bitch snobby and i got all nerdy and a little stuckup and she stopped coming to church and idunno. it just kinda kasplatted. but she's nice now. maybe we can be friends again sometime.

day trese = someone i wish could forgive me

lolsobehind. uhm.
do iwish someone could forgive me?
notreally. man that sounds bitchy but really, i'm on good terms with everyone i want to b on good terms with. i guess i wish god could forgive me for being a kinda shit person sometimes? but i know he does ^_^ jesusiscoolshit.
nopicture. i'm tired and not in a philisophical enough mood to think of a god picture.

day doce = person who caused me a lot of pain

it was either caused a lot of pain or who i hate most. i don't really hate people. so caused me a lot of pain. i'll save the one i'm thinking of for the broke your heart the hardest though and instead go with this person even though it'll make me look stupid and awful.

this is kim. my cousin. i love her like a ton. i really do. she's just like me and it's so awesome that she's here and all butttttt. this is also the first time i've ever been like really jealous lol. people love her and ignore me now. like honestly, if she's there, they don't even talk to me. instead they're fawning over how gorgeous she is or how cute her accent is or how cool it is she's from the netherlands. i guess i'm scared that she's stealing all my friends? which is stupid cause she's going back to the netherlands soon and all but i feel like they'll still remember her, still ask about her, still love her more than me =[ oh well. tough noogies i guess.

day once = dead person i wanna talk to

lolsomanydaysbehind. okay someone who's gone now that i want to talk to. uuhhmm. i could say something like my grandparents but what difference would it really make? uhm. i could say something like hitler. but no. i would probs like cry or something. and then bitch slap him. i'm glad he's good and dead and i wouldn't bring him back even to kill him again. i could say jesus. but that seems like a weird answer. kurt vonnegut keeps popping into my head. i would love to talk to him but i'd have to read all his books first. still. he'd be like the perfect grandfather lol. maybe him just cause he's the first to come to mind. hehepicturee. hmmm maybe someone else though. someone like... OH WHOAGOTIT. marilyn monroe. i absolutely adoreeee her. like she's one of my personal role models lol. not only is she absolutely gorgeous (of course) but she had just the best outlook on life, men, beauty, everything. she was actually a lot smarter than people gave her credit for. she knew how to be sexy but not sleazy. she knew she was beautiful but she never got stuck up about it. she managed to be a sex icon without seeming easy. she always had men but was never commited enough to hurt herself. she really was the epitomy of a great independent woman. i adore her. so much. she is everything i wish i could be <3 

day diez = someone i don't talk to as much as i'd like

lolsamepicture. okay. so yesterday this thing was him too but i was so tired so i sucked at talking about him so today it'll be good =] ROARBEAR. i used to talk to him like all the time forever but then everything happened and it was all OH NO, IF ANYONE EVER TALKS TO BECCA THEIR LIFE WILL BE RUINED but you know that ended lol. so yeah. we still don't really talk a ton. i still don't know too much about him. which sucks but is also cool? cause what i do know about him is awesome. it's like when you're reading a reallllyyy good book and you just kinda never want it to end but at the same time you want to know the story? that's what getting to know him is like. so whoot! i vote we talk. all in favor, make us talk more. *waits* (*whispers* now it's time to see who's in favor.)

day nueve = someone i wanna meet

i'll do three people. one real and one famous and one crazy odd one that only becca would think of to do.

okay. i wanna meet him. still. even though i'm officially over him which is awesomely awesome. but yeah he's still a cool person so i hope to meet him even though i doubt it'll ever happen =p maybe someday we will plan to accidentally bump into each other by crazy happenstance coincidentally. yes?  yes. sofuckingtired.

someone to love me. a lot. and not love someone first. and not tell me my flaws all the time. and want to be with me and just me.

God. and little christian girl strikes again! WAPOW! uhm that picture is god to me. idunno why. anyways. i wanna meet himherit. just cause he rocks my life. can i get a wootwoot? probably not from the kind of people i hang out with...BUTSTILL. uhm yeah. he's my famous person lol. or maybe damien kulash! him too ^_^